m o o n c h i l d

dati masaya magtrabaho. ngayon nararamdaman ko na yung pressure at ung pagkaseryoso ng pagkakaroon ng trabaho at ng trabaho ko mismo.

gusto ko magevents...magpr...magfreelance. pero ang hirap mawalan ng trabaho dahil mahirap maghanap.


isa tong challenge saken. kelangan ko na kasing tumanda at magmature. ang hirap lang bitawan ung pagiging bata ko.

lalo na ung malaking parte ng aking paglaki pinakawalan ko at pinagpalit ko sa isang mas mature na experience. nakakapressure. napepressure ako.

im pressured to grow up. i still don't want to.

nakakasama ng loob...

na nagset ng christmas party sa bahay na alam ng lahat na di ko mapupuntahan.

sige isipin ko na lang para makaiwas sa drama. hilig pa naman sa drama ng iba. lagi na lang may away kapag christmas party. for the first time baka ngayon wala kasi wala ako. noh?

anyway, ♥ i love today. i love how receptive my family and friends are to him...and how easily they accept him. maybe because he's more open to things and that he easily found a way to relate with them. He went with us to Valle Verde for lunch and afternoon swimming, then to Tita Dana's to visit Maddie, then to Shangri-La to meet my dad and even though he lives in makati, he still went home with us to drink with my friends here. :)

i really am happy. ♥ ganito pala kadali kapag alam mong tama at mature ang pagkakataon.

nakabiruan sya agad ng mga kaibigan ko dito. they need not find a common ground. i guess because they all know what they're talking about. and im happy with how my mom relates with him. the only problem now is my dad. i guess because he knows i see him in jhing. . . and a daughter almost always find their fathers in their prospective partners.

this may be cliche, but i know i love him now. there are so many things that hinder us or seperates us but it really does not matter.

this may be love...or as i say...i know it is. ♥

konting effort na lang.

AAAAAAAAAAARGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
moodswings moodswings.

i have reasons to be pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


here's the schedule for December:

pink for ceska's sked
green for jhing's sked

Dec 1 and 2 - BM Marketing Sales Planning
Dec 1, 2 - Tupperware Team Dance Practice
Dec 3, 4 - CGS Mandaluyong Dance Practice
Dec 5 - Tupperware Team Dance Practice
Dec 6 - family day
Dec 7 - Tupperware Team Dance Practice
Dec 8 - CGS Mandaluyong Dance Practice
Dec 9 - BM MArketing Christmas Party
Dec 9 - Tupperware Team Dance Practice
Dec 10 - ALC Publication Group Christmas Party
Dec 10 - CGS Team Dance Practice
Dec 11 - CGS Team Dance Practice
Dec 11 - Morg Live 4
Dec 12 & 13 - wala pa naman.
Dec 15, 17 and 18 CGS Team Dance PRactice
Dec 19 - CGS CHristmas Party
Dec 20 - family day
Dec 21- birthday nya


compare greens to pinks. go figure. then he didn't allow me to stay out as late as i want on the 11th. GRRRR...imma fight for that right. i will. i will stay as late as i want. i get what i want. especially when i stretch my patience more than i want for something else.

must repeat until it sinks in.


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I saw a book yesterday at Fullybooked and the cover caught my eye...as books always did with his. he has this gift of always picking a good book judging by its cover. I wanted to buy it then and there but my budget does not permit me. It's entitled "Cloud Atlas" by David Mitchell.(have you read it? is it good? is it recommendable?)

I haven't read anything else yet after Shadow of the wind. speaking of that book.. i still prefer One hundred years of solitude over it by I imagine James McAvoy as Julian Carax and that guy from Stardust as Daniel Sempere. The plotline is good. But it doesn't have that X-factor for me that hundred years had. I was expecting it to speed up or climax but it never came. The stories just suddenly unfolded...as if i am expecting it already but it never crossed my mind that Inspector Fumero was part of that mumbo-jumbo past with carax and aldaya.

Anyway, what else is new?

aaaahhh...I still haven't sold a single column/cm for this month and it's already the 27th. It's depressing, when you think of it. Sometimes i'm scared that they are saying things behind my back (which i'm sure they are) and they would think i'm not working when in fact i really am. Jhing and I talk about work most of the time (and it gets boring) and he is actually helping me sell or get to know clients. He's also giving me new accounts to tap but our efforts lead us in vain this month. At least, i have a 100k production next month which i hope they give a 100% credit considering it's an ex-deal.

haay, no one knows how inferior i feel when we're both presenting to clients. I actually prefer not going to events with him or meetings with him so i could act freely.

now i know how he felt when work or whatever takes me away from him and when i cancelled dates. :(

it's hard to learn the hard way. redundancy required for emphasis. lol.

i'm home early but im still working now. -_- i look forward to lying down and hugging mijo and falling asleep.



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SINONG ALIPIN NG KORPORASYON AT KOMERSYALISMO? AKO!

nakakadepresss. nabasa ko nga sa iba na para syang EVAN ALMIGHTY na seryoso...oo nga. paano kung mangyari talaga noh? paano kung hindi? nakakatakot. sana wag nilang itago sa atin yung information na ganoon kasi para makapaghanda LAHAT ng tao...hindi yung kung sino lang ang sa tingin nilang mabuhay. tsk tsk tsk.

ayoko pang mag-end of the world. gusto ko makabuo ng career, ikasal, magka-anak at makalibot sa mundo.


sana hindi talaga sya totoo.


sana please Lord.

♥ here's to moving forward and new beginnings...endings of a new kind ♥

sa lahat ng ayoko ay yung...

a smile is plastered on my face. hahaha mukha na kong tanga ♥

i still check his pages. . . even though we have deleted each other from the lists. but i can't fight my curiosity of what he's been up to lately and the like.

anyway, he posted Spitalfield's I love the way you said LA which coincidentally i just recently transferred in my iPod and all the other 2003-2004 songs. I have been listening to it a lot but then Muse's Undisclosed Desires (from their new album "RESISTANCE") played in 88.3. This song is one of those songs that tugs at your heartstrings and the moment i heard and learned the lyrics, i instantly thought of one person...Jhing.

No doubt about it...the best years of my life was 2003-2004 when everything was fresh and i was young and in love without a care for the world. but that part of my life is over. it is over.

So i guess all i'm saying is. . .when you move on from something...you take one last look at the past and never the never look back. In my case, the songs did it. :) ♥

nakakasama talaga ng loob yung kala mo masosolo mo na sya tapos hindi pa pala kasi biglang inagaw na naman sya ng trabaho saken.

pero naiintindihan ko kasi di pa kasi kami magkalevel sa trabaho kaya di ko maiiwasang magtampo.

di na kami makakamerienda kasi busy na sya. kausap yung client. buti pa sya busy..ako busy-busyhan that's why i'm making inquisitive facial expressions so it would look like i'm typing a proposal when in reality i'm just typing this blog entry.

it's been a while. haaay. i'm feeling depressed over the turn out of things in almost all aspects in my life right now. My job -- it's fun but i'm having a hard time selling ad spaces; my love life -- it's good but living in opposite worlds have a lot of downs too; my past life -- i miss it like hell and i miss that set of friends and how we party and how i was a part of it. I'm just glad i have something to keep my mind off the negative side of things.

really. at this time...i know i can't have everything. i let go of one thing..i let go of a lot of things...it's like a chain reaction. inevitable. but that's life....


argh. may client akong inaabangan ang tawag tapos imbes na saken lumapit..kay jhing sya lumapit ano ba to. :(( ang hiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap hiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaap (see previous post)

AAAAAAh magbabasa na lang ako ng libro. tinatamad na ko tumawag. wala na rin kasing tao :(


ALASKA!! sagutin mo na ako :((

music is such a powerful weapon of aging memories wanting to be relived and relieved.

putangina. so ano pinapalabas mo? hindi ako friend or naging friend sa mga tao?? na ang tanging titulo ko sa grupo na yan ay GIRLFRIEND ni JONG? at ngayon ano ako? EX NI JONG NA PINAGPALIT SYA?

putangina talaga. tapos makikita ko pa na hindi ka nagpopost kasi may mga elements na hindi pwede ipost..fine i fucking respect that pero bad element? TANGINA mo.

NOW YOU FUCKING TELL ME WHO'S DISREGARDING WHAT WE HAD!! YOU FUCKING SAY IT TO MY FACE.tanginat alaga. nakakairita ka. sige ipost mo pa mga pictures mo hanggang 2009. baket./.nung nagrereklamo ka tungkol sa mga kaibigan mo sinong lagi mong kasama. sino nakikiramay sayo. tangina tangina talaga.

SINO NAGDIDISREGARD NGAYON? Who's trashing "US" now???

MAGPAKALUNOD KA DYAN SA ALAK MO PUTANGINA KA. IPAGLANDAKAN MO SA BUONG MUNDONG PARTY KA NG PARTY. alam ko defense mechanism mo to pero wag mo ko tatawaging bad element.

DAHIL KAHIT SINASABI NA NG MGA TAO NA LOSER KA AT PATHETIC KA, DINEDEPENSAHAN PA RIN KITA.

QUITS NA TAYO. I BROKE YOUR HEART AND NOW YOU'RE BREAKING MINE BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT AFTER YOU AND MY FAMILY, OUR FRIENDS ARE THE ONES I TREASURE THE MOST BECAUSE I ONCE CAN IDENTIFY MYSELF WITH YOU.

sige kayong lahat, wag nyo ko replyan. alam ko kinakampihan nyo ung kaibigan nyo pero putangina. YOU IGNORE ME AS IF I'VE NEVER BEEN A FRIEND TO YOU.


FUCK THIS LIFE. FUCK YOU ALL.

i am seriously considering to take up kick-boxing. I remembered how "intense" tae kwon do was and how disciplined i am with my diet. all that went to waste when i started college when the foodtrippings and booze flowing began. going to the gym is not enough for me. i need someone to guide me or discipline me, so i could achieve the weight i want.

i saw how marvs dein_adik lost a lot of weight when he started muay thai. but i don't think i can handle that so im sticking to kickboxing. wachu think? when i've saved up enough, i'm gonna start right away.

any good gyms you could recommend? cost? location? give me details. i'm serious about this. i can feel the fat slowing me down and i feel sluggish and i sweat easily now. :(

The Time Traveler's WIfe is a good book. it was romantic and all but it has the same effect on me as Lovely Bones. it saddens me. depresses me too much that i suddenly see all things pessimistically.

i feel sad for myself. for my situation.

i have a pimple inside a nostril. It's BIG and painful. hehehe trying to mess up the rich text format of posting an entry. lol XD

anyway.......i've been wiping off the mucus every now and then if not with a tissue, the collar of my pambahay shirts. My pambahay shirts are all white. I woke up as if i sweat blood around my collarbone. eew.

I don't know when this will heal but I'm taking antibiotics now. The worst part is, I have an interview tomorrow at 9am and this pimple will surely still be there. My nose is swollen on one side only (the left because that's where the pimple is) and all my whiteheads are out on the left side only, too. lol. Otherwise, my nose's right side is perfectly normal and have a very smooth texture with no white or blackheads. hahaha. I can just imagine the weird look on the interviewer's face tomorrow and i think I have to explain my monstrous appearance but on normal days, i say i'm not bad.

Another thing about this pimple, I get so paranoid about germs now. I rub my hands with alcohol more than once a day to not spread the pus (eew) germ in other parts of my body. The worst part is...my sister has the flu and we don't know if it's swine, dengue or the normal one.

Quarantine our house please!!!!

pimples are life's reminder for us to not forget our hygiene and always clean and refresh after going out for the day. That way, you leave all the dirt and excess baggage behind or down the drain. sleep with a peaceful mind and a cleansed soul. (wtf?!)


lol.

while my gooey sipon is involuntarily trickling down my nose (i know...eew, gross...but i just have to put it here) i have edited these pictures in light of my on-going fangirl mode for as tall as lions. i wish i could embed it here but their songs jut give me a natural high and have been my soundtrack from late last year up to now. :)



Song for Luna



Love Love Love Love (the pic is dark for a reason.-_-)

who would want to apply to this job? hahahahahahahaha. browsing jobstreet.com has been my habit since the start of the month and i visit it as much as i open my facebook and plurk accounts. Before, writing an essay is not a hard task to do but nowadays, i have to wait for the right to time just so i could write a decent one that will impress the HR of the companies i'm applying for. :(

i need a good stimulus for my brain. there's a japanese language class in UP diliman that i wanted to enroll in (because it's open for everyone) but a module costs 7,000 pesos for 3 months. My parents think it's a waste of money and they said what if i get a job within those three months...sayang lang yung 7k. Now Im stuck here at home with a bad bad cold, waiting for visitors here at home for a drink or two.

i miss school and all the wonderful things i learn from it, inside and outside the classroom. :( i don't want to end up applying as a HOUSE KEPPER.