i support him and all but i get jealous as if dancing is his no pantied mistress.

 I've thought of TWO career paths that I'm planning to take. . .okay fine THREE. 

1. Continue being an AE, take all the client's heat - filter - relay to creatives instructions - absorb creatives frustrations - filter - make excuses to client for delay. Meet new people, build new relationships, expand my network and get chances/opportunities to be sent abroad for business trips then once i'm an established "marketeer," go to client side for further career growth. 

2. Apply as a junior copywriter. Develop writing skills. Establish myself as a renowned writer then get married so i can work at home while being a housewife. 

3. Apply as a junior copywriter then move to journalism then apply in a food magazine OR just start a DECENT FOOD BLOG while being a copywriter then apply in a food magazine and establish myself as a food critic. 

so, what do you think is the better path to take? I'm for all three. 

 naiiyak ako. gusto ko maging immature. gusto ko ako nasusunod. 

:( 

baket ang hirap hirap sa loob ko na payagan sya sumayaw? alam ko gusto nya yon, pero parang hesitant akong pasayawin sya? dahil ba sa mga kwento nya nung dancer pa sya? yung mga paglolokong ginagawa nya nung mga panahon na yon? :(

hindi ko rin masagot. 

simpleng hindi nya ko masasamahan sa trinoma para makasayaw sya kinatatampo ko na. 

nakakainis don hindi man lang nya ko lambingin.


sometimes, i think he just holds my hands for the sake of holding it, or out of habit, but not because he wants to. 
i think he just brings me home out of routine.
the goodbye kiss comes easily as breathing. 


what is happening to the world? this hurts. it so hurts and it's breaking my heart a bit. :( 

A good ending to a tiresome day
is me in your arms
A perfect ending to a tiresome day
is not having to leave it
and you staying by my side
until the next sunrise

then we continue to lead our different lives until... ♥

super cute ni toma sa userpic ko.

  pansin ko, tuwing sunday na lang nagtatalo kami. kainis. 

nakakainis di nya nagegets minsan na nagpapacute lang ako. di pa rin nya alam kelan ako galit talaga. argh. atsaka kaninang kanina ko pa sinabi na magonline syaaa baket hindi sya nagonline. ewan ko ba. rar. 

ano ba. diba dapat ako nga yung "hindi sweet" samen daw. wth. rar. ewan. lilipas din to. nagmumood swings lang ako. 

hay kainis. kainis. 

tapos ngayon may sakit sya. nakakainis wala akong magawa at nandito ako sa quezon city sya nasa makati. di ko man lang mabigyan ng gamot. sinasabihan ko mag vitamin c wala naman syang vitamin c. wala silang gamot. 

ganda ganda ng araw ko ang panget ng ending.

tapos sobrang loser pa ng globe.
sobrang loser talaga ng globe. 

ano ba okay? sun nawawalan ng signal sa gabi. globe biglang nawawala mga sinesend kong messages. smart - wala masyadong nakasmart pero WALANG PALYA SMART PRAMIS! 

the old me disgusts the present me but i wouldn't have it any other way. everything leads to this. :) 

why do i chicken out when i face the blank edit box while the cursor is blinking impatiently at me. i know i want to write and i know what to write but it all comes out wrong. and reading great writer friends and seeing their success just makes me feel so envious and i pity myself.

i want to be someone who i am not. but i want to pursue something else. like that dutch doll, wherein there are other dolls inside  that you wouldn't know of unless you open it.

its hard to pretend that i am a neat freak. my oc skills can only go as far. haha.

 i dont care not being with everyone at once, if not everyone wants to be with me. being with the people you know who care will suffice.

someday i will travel the world and my eyes will open up and my heart will know what i am destined to do. i am actually very excited to find out.